..so finish off your whiskey or beer

i'm not exactly the best person to take advice from.
i'm not perfect, infact. i'm far from it.
most people would say i'm not 'friend' material.

every 2-3 months i randomly drop friends.
i also start actin up and pushin the limits.
MOST PEOPLE I KNOW DONT LIKE ME.
i'm like a thorn in their foot, only making things worse.

i miss the times when people woudlnt judge you at all.
well, i miss elementary school. i hate high school.
you know in elementary school life was great.
work a little, and play alot. then eat lunch!
where did the time go? someone please let me know!

Destiny..

Destiny: the ultimate agency that predetermines the course of events (often personified as a woman); "we are helpless in the face of Destiny"

i've come here to find omething within myself. i hope inturn it iwll make my life better. i need a change. i need closure. i need help...i need enough reasons to need. there isso much stuff i haven't been able to talk about with anybody for a long time. and i still dont. so i've turned to this. i've got to start something new. i need a new design, a new look on life. i need plans, rough drafts... i've got to do SOMETHING, soon. it seems as if my entire life i've been waiting on something, no someone to come along and solve all my problems and make me happy forever. DESTINY. such a confusing word..the definition, which in itself is very simple, is often mistaken. someone once told me that if you are a bad person, bad things will happen to you. sometimes i wonder if im a bad person, because i cant remember the last time something good hapened to me. like maybe im cursed and dont know it. WHO DID I PISS OFF IN MY PAST LIFE??? someone doesnt care for me..

aside from my rambling, i've got to go..things to do